Im feeling it
I am definitely feeling the major depression right now. I have no idea what to do. I am fucking up. A few days ago I started chewing my meds and holy fuck it gets me so high. Like its stupidly high bit then after I just feel like shit. I feel really suicidal right now but theres nobody to go to. I just want someone. Someone loyal and someone trustful. I am drunk on the idea that love will be the answer to all of my issues. It could be but I need someone loyal and trustful. But thats hard to come around nowadays. Teenagers are so stupid and were so rude. I just hope sooner or later everybody grows the fuck up and stops acting like children. I wish people weren’t fake and I wish certain someones were real with me. I want them to be straight up and realistic and tell me the center of why I am an issue to them. I want to be roasted. Burned up in the flames of the things people say. Maybe then I will recognize who is “authentic" and who is "counterfeit”.